Returning With an Elixir
By Chris on Jan 1, 2008 in Essays
Coming off of a month of almost no podcasts, RSS feeds, IM, and Twitter gives you an interesting perspective. This online world of messaging is loud. It’s like walking out of a quiet cabin and onto the trading floor of the New York Stock Exchange. Everyone is shouting for your attention. Twitter, popping up every other second.
Forget it. I’m done with that. It messes with my new-found serenity. The detox was far better for me than I ever could have hoped.
Within twenty-four hours of my detox, I felt like a weight has been lifted. It was no longer my job to keep in touch with everyone. I had a respite. This, I realize, is entirely my problem, but there is something powerful in giving yourself permission to drop off the map for a while. To allow for the fact that, yes, you’re going to miss some witty banter and clever repartee. It felt wonderful.
Within three days of shutting down all my messaging apps I noticed that my headaches went away. Completely. I think it’s probably because my eyes were focused for longer periods on one thing rather than flitting from window to window as messages came in real time.
Being available is highly overrated.
Within seven days of not reading three hundred blogs and listening to seventy podcasts, the words began to return to me. I started to write. Just sentences at first. Just an idea or two, a snippet of dialogue, then more. Not, the great novel is not in the works, but these essays are a start. I’ve rediscovering a voice I thought I had lost.
Within fifteen days of going without the writer in my head would not leave me alone. My inner voice will not let me sleep until I got down what it needed to say. Yes, in a weirdly psychotic way, I consider this progress.
Now, thirty days later after I began, I realize that I prefer this peace to the way I was living before. While the quality of my writing has not improved much, the content has gone from trivial things to deeper thoughts, from mere conversation to contemplation. I prefer this state of being, this place from which I can engage the world by own action, rather than by a Pavlovian reaction every time the email or twitter notification sounds.
Did I miss my friends, my tribe? Of course I did. I look forward to talking to them again. But it was interesting…when something important happened, I found out about it via email, or phone call. Anything that I missed was usually trivial. The important stuff will find you.
I think that’s the most important thing my info detox taught me. The important stuff will find you. Stepping away is good for the soul.
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So what does this mean? Are you going to drop off for good, or cut back, or what?
Work paid for my blackberry, and because I lost my job, I had to cancel the account yesterday. I expected withdrawal to set in, but I think I’m better off this way. With my hopes to start writing in the early morning again, I think I need to keep the internets off until I get my wordcount down. Stop the distractions.
I admire you. Not sure if I’d have the discipline to unplug for so long. You are mighty.
Mur Lafferty | Jan 1, 2008 | Reply
I for one am glad to have you back… in whatever newly minted form it may be.
P.G. Holyfield | Jan 1, 2008 | Reply
Glad to see your time away has been good for ya!
Andrea | Jan 1, 2008 | Reply
I second Mr. Holyfield’s statement. While unplugging is always good for the soul it’s nice to see you wandering around the neighborhood again.
miniTotoro | Jan 1, 2008 | Reply
Well I agree with you - it’s hard and not always beneficial to keep up with so many messaging apps and blogs. Before you know it you’ve spent all the time on it; time you thought you had set aside for writing, or art, or creativity, or living. (I point squarely at myself here.) It’s a great act of balance to figure out the important vs. the trivial. I applaud you for the detox! And I’m also glad you’re still around.
Nycteris | Jan 1, 2008 | Reply
Congrats Chris - perhaps make it a practice to do it one day a week? Now you know what you’ve been missing…
Bill Carter | Jan 2, 2008 | Reply
Even the few days away from the Internet I had over Xmas/New Years were a blessing.
We do tend to attach importance to a lot of stuff that, only a few years ago, we’d thought nothing of.
David Mead | Jan 2, 2008 | Reply
Dude, I know what you mean. I had to make sure that when I took off a week for the holidays, that I didn’t do any work related stuff, and not feel guilty for not doing any work. I had a friend recommend that I do this, for this vacation, and I’m glad that I did. I feel better, and have to re-prioritize things my self.
RandyNose | Jan 2, 2008 | Reply